i'm eighteen years old and i feel incomplete.
that may sound weird to most because eighteen is still considered to be quite young.
but i feel like i haven't accomplished ANYTHING at all in my life.
there are so many things that i've started to do because i had a basic interest in it.

but when it came down to it i never gave it my all.

i used to take singing lessons...and let my dislike for the instructor discourage my desire to sing.

then i tried to play sports but let my insecurities about my height prevent me from really interacting with my peers.

i gave modeling a go and that didn't turn out the greatest even though i still feel like i have a passion for it. the problem that occurred the first time is that i felt like i was a natural model because of my height and body frame...i put no work into it. when i did photo shoots i didn't even practice poses before hand or work out.

every time i wanted to do something i always said i REALLY wanted to do it but never appreciated when i had the chance to satisfy my desires...

right now i'm at York University studying Business Economics trying to get my life together...but something doesn't feel right.

i have the unconditional love and support of my mother but i still feel uneasy about the direction i'm taking with my life.

i want to make a difference...but don't know how to...

i wish there was someone who could help me see what talents i have and what my full potential is...because i'm afraid that i'll spend my whole life on the fence not giving my all to anything...

because this indecisiveness is also negatively affecting my relationships...and preventing from giving my all to my relationships...which i'm learning the hard way via heart break.